Update…upgrade?

Hello one and all. I’ve decided to update 5 months after my last post. I got a new laptop with Windows 7 and this livewriter thing came with it so here I am.

Nothing much has changed since January. One year left of school and I’m kinda freaking out about it. But I’m sure everything will be alright. *nervous laugher*.

Update

So summer was pretty good. I think. I don’t know, I can’t remember. But I’m updating and I have to say something….nothing. My mind is blank right now. I did better this semester. Two A’s. Three B’s. Still no C’s. Thankyouverymucha. Laura started college. She’s not any taller. Um…what else, what else, school is starting again soo. Oh! It’s 2010. Sounds/Looks so futuristic right? Very creepy.

I received an email from school letting me know I need to apply for graduation. HOLY CRAP! APLLY FOR GRADUATION?! NOooOOOOO. I’m too young! What the hell am I going to do??? Answer me! Breathe, breathe. Its okay. Everything is going to be okay. I’ll do something. I’ll go to grad school. That’ll be easy. But I really want to move out but I do not see that happening anytime in the near five years. :O Im stuck.

Summer

Hello Blog. Been a while. What’s happened since my last entry i hear you ask in my head? Well I’m not so worried about my grades anymore. I passed all my classes. Got B’s in all of them. Even a B-. So I didn’t do that great. But i passed, which is more than i expected. Although I feel like i should have failed. Then i might have learned my lesson about procrastinating. oh well.

my sister graduated. she’s happy. not much else to say about that. we had a fun party for her. it took up most of my time weeks before the party. my mom went crazy with the preparations. cleaning and making up games like Laura trivia and Laura bingo. Got a big annoying actually. I’m glad its all over. But it was fun.

So summer has been good so far. The first few weeks were not good. I read like six books. that’s all i was doing. it was pathetic. I had feared i would be wasting my summer watching television. well ive grown out of the whole television phase but now reading has become my time waster. i needed a life. so i cut my hair and started taking more care of my appearance with the whole makeup and straightening my hair and all that. i feel more confident and much better overall. been hanging out with friends a bit. just today i had lunch with steph, chrissy and jianne for her birthday. thursday i invited everyone to go to yardhouse for my birthday. super excited.

but the rest of summer will be even more awesome. going to an angel game, seeing death cab, maybe universal studios and san francisco. gosh i can’t wait. this summer may be the best yet.

Yauhhh

Hello blog. How are you? Long time no waste.

So school is over. Lets see what I was planning for this summer: more work hours, summer classes, reading as many books and watching as many movies and listening to as much music as possible, staring my mom’s etsy site and attempting to sell my own items, seeing death cab!!, going on vacay to the Winchester house!

sounds good right? well the things that I was planning on taking up most of my time were work and school. but since budget cuts I don’t plan on getting any more hours and i tried registering for summer school and since budget cuts there aren’t any available that I need. so ill have to rely on those other things on my list. doens’t sound too bad. but not as busy as I planned on being. -_-

I’m just glad school is over. this has been the worst semester ever. I might have even failed a class. Maybe I’m overreacting. My lasft final I”m sure I failed. and I got a B. the rest I don’t know about yet. so i’ll cross my fingers. but only when I know my final grades will i be able to relax.

I'm a dog person

I HATE CATS. I am a nice person, generally. However, when it comes to cats I often feel…what's the word…murderous? Cats make me so angry.They rule my neighborhood. Seriously there's probably at least 20 on my block alone. And they pee in my yard, in my plants. Sure, dogs do the same, but they're more likely on a leash. And cats are just so needy. Not only that but its like they want to test me. I'll be driving down the street and cat will cross right in front of my car. One time a cat stopped in the middle of the street and just stared at me…daring me to run it over. They have additudes. Maybe I'm crazy, but i've only seen the worst of cats. They scratch and make weird noises at night. I was pretty much raised to hate cats. my dad has a b.b. gun stashed under the coffe table for any cats that come into the yard. don't worry, he's never used it, but maybe one day…

on another note, i was also raised to love dogs. i had a dog from age 4 to 16/17. I genuinely believe she was the most beautiful dog I've ever seen. She was half dalmation and half black labrdor. She had pretty much all black fur except for her stomach which had white with black spots. Her name was Jasmine and she was part of my family.

Kittens are okay. They're cute. That is until they grow up.

Snapeing

Okay so ill make this quick. I have a lot do today. In my harry potter class (yes, I am taking a harry potter class) we were talking about snaping…snapeing? which apparently means spoiling a good book, movie whatever. i’ve recently gotten into debate with my brother on whether music can be snaped by early leaks. i say it can. but anyway, that’s not the point.

it seems people get very upset when things are spoiled for them. pretty much the whole class was halved between thinking it was funny or that it was immature and ridiculous. I was on the funny side. In fact I have shirt : http://www.threadless.com/product/844/Spoilt i was going to post a picture of it, but to save people from spoilers, i put a link instead. anyway, i bought it and wear it because i think its hilarious. maybe im cruel, immature, thoughtless…i ono. I’m a nice person. and ive only gotten two comments while wearing that shirt. one was two guys who loved it. they thought it was funny and another girl who also owns the shirt and merely warned me about the dangers. but i have never gotten anyone to become upset at it. ive also realized that people dont read my shirts because they’re afraid ill think they’re staring at my breasts. that might have something to do with it.

but anyway, my professor at my harry potter class showed us you tube clips of people driving by yelling out spoilers when the last book came out. i thought it would be hilarious. but it really isn’t. the guys doing it seem like a bunch of idiots. and the reactions of the fans aren’t funny. they just curse at them. maybe if they screamed and fell to their knees. but most of them were just kinda mad.

so ive been made to feel really guilty about my shirt. ill still wear it when i have the guts because i believe in free speech. and i really dont think people read my shirts anyways. and its hard for me to have sympathy for people because ive never had anything spoiled for me and i probably wouldn’t care all that much if it were. im a passionless person.

anyway, i wanted to blog about spoling/snaping. it was going to be more eloquent and it was supposed to mean something. but i dont have time. oh btw: snape kills dumbledore.!

I can’t seem to work.

I have an incurable procrastination disease. And the worst thing is that I know I won’t fail. At least I think. That’s what prevents me from working. I’ve never failed a class. I got a D+ on my most recent english essay but that was a fluke. That was just a really horribly written essay. Won’t happen again. At least not enough times that I should quit procrastinating.

So the Matt Costa show was great. So sad I forgot my camera. Darn.

Blah.

So here I am. avoiding work once again. Let’s see, went to actual work for four hours, came home, spent about three hours listening to some guy read all his 7,000+ followers on twiter. i only listened until he read my name. which took two hours. then i watched the Angel baseball game. i didn’t even finish watching it, crappy pictching. then i watched television and finished a crossword puzzle. apparently tom hanks was on family ties for like five episodes. SIGH. i hate this. why can’t i just focus?!

this week seems to be promising. last week seemed so as well. wed. night I was supposed to see Conor Oberst and the Mystic Valley Band. but my brother bailed and i didn’t want to go alone. i was going to ditch class to see them so i figured since im not going tothe show, ill go to class at least. but no. i was too lazy. i should never miss class. i ALWAYS regret it. even if nothing happened. the fact that something might have happened just worries me to no end. SIGH. again. oh and friday i was supposed to hang out with steph at fingerprints. but she bailed as well. something about jury duty. -_- whatevs. i figured i should go on friday to work on essay and huge research paper. but i didn’t. i dont even remember what i did friday. just wasted more time. ugh.

so wed. Matt Costa is supposed to play for free at school. sounds awesome. hopefully all goes well. wed is earth day too. ill carpool with serg. maybe steph will want to go this friday. maybe ill see movie next weekend. maybe ill get things done.

Ah. The need for a ramble.

I should be sleeping. But I don’t feel like it. I’m watching the Office and I’m not laughing. I don’t feel like it. How do i feel? Wait, no i just laughed. The Office never fails me.

My co-worker was highly disturbed today. I’ve mentioned this before and I will mention it again. The library —wait. Steve Carrel voices Spearmint Gum commercials? lame. okay continue—so anyway, creepos and werirdos seem to congregate at the library. and perverts. perverts are the worst. My co-worker was shelving books and a man stood next to her and touched himself. She was very angry. She told our supervisor but the guy had left by then. But omg. What would I have done? If that had been me I would be seriously mentally harmed right now. I’m just too fragile for such things.

Why are people so horrible? Why do they do such disgusting perverted things? Now I’m all upset. Great even Dwight Schrute is crying. Poor Dwight. Angela left him. Good lord, why?

Oh yeah and i forgot to mention this. I’m sure anyone who is an LA Angel fan knows and anyone who lives in Southern CA knows about Nick Adenheart. Killed by a drunk driver hours after pitching a sixth inning shut out. The Angels lost but Nick was awesome. He was the last thing I saw before I went to bed that night. They were interviewing him after the game and I sat there, staring in admiration. He was a kid, a few years older than me and he was great at something. And then I wake the next morning to find him dead. It was crazy. I went to bed at like 10 p.m. and he was dead two hours later. Crazy. He had no idea. I could die tomorow. And he died right around the corner from my school, near my home. It could have been me.

Sometimes I feel like I have to believe in God. I have to believe that there is something after death. That things happen for a reason. Why that moment? Why that car? In some ways I also feel bad for the drunk driver. I mean sure he’s a total douche bag but I highly doubt he meant to kill anyone. If it had been some random person then it would be mentioned, people would cry, but he killed a local up and coming baseball star. I mean he’s got to feel like crap. Imagine how ashamed his family feels. And nobody will forget it for a long time. The frakkn’ Angels corporation has Nick’s number sewed onto the uniforms.

WHy can’t people just be good? I’m no angel, but I figure if I obey the laws then that lessens my chances of something bad happening to me right? But people don’t care or they don’t think. I ono, I’m just babbling now. I speed a lot. Is 80 mph really that bad though? I’ve seen people drive faster and I only go 80 if I can. Driving home from work I stay in the slow lane since home is the next exit off the freeway and I don’t tailgate. or at least I try not to. Augh. I’m so frustrated now.

 i think I know my answer. People are flawed. THey are stupid, reckless and thoughtless. Especially younger people. I’m not sure how old the drunk driver was but I predict that older people like 40+ have lived enough of life to realize that bad things happen.* I mean you’d think it was something that’s learned early on. Am I just mature for my age? I ono. I’m not even 21. Maybe one day you’ll see me on the news.

*Unless their addicts. In which they should avoid dangerous situations/manuvering heavy machinery all together.

Easter 2009

This is the first Easter we had no egg hunt. How horribly depressing. But then it wasn’t. The food wasn’t even that good. My grandmother no longer enjoys slaving over a stove so we had a sanwich buffet. Not glorious. But again, it was. I had a good time just spending time with my family. It’s probably the one time that although they didn’t realize it, we enjoyed each other’s company. Now if only we could spend Christmas without any presents….

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I made this blog so I could like…i ono…express myself? But I have been so unexpressive lately. Por qua? At times throughout the week I have these deep feelings/revelations and then I forget them. Well its like I forget what I actually thought but I still have the feeling of the thought. If that makes any sense. hrm…